michaelaUNCENSORED!

Been laying low for a little while, and by laying low I mean censoring how I truly feel about shit. People cant handle the effing truth anyway! We all say: I want the truth! Well you know what? You cant handle the truth! Well, my truth anyway! People are so full of shit anyway. So what im saying is this..

If you dont like what I have to say? You know what to do next.

Its on now fuckers, lets see who I manage to piss off!

Have a great day!

I know, I know. This title seems to be pessimistic. But in life, sometimes learning shit comes at a price. Regardless of the fact that I have a pretty good attitude towards life, sometimes I just get so angry. Angry with myself for not paying attention, angry because most people are so selfish and self absorbed that they no idea that others are in need. I get angry at the economy and how poorly I have managed my money over the last 5-10 years. I get angry at the fact that sometimes you really do have to tackle huge problems alone. With noone there to help you or soothe you. Lately my learning experiences have been vast and have come with lots pain and loss. In the midst of this, the learning is like a little jewel, a little golden nugget, that I can take a step back from and say: “Oh, now I get it!”. I feel like God has an interesting way of teaching us what we need to learn. The easy way or for me? Recent lessons have come through heartache, pain, loss and sadness. Regardless of how crazy life has been for me the last few months, what I can say is this. I’M THINKING MORE CLEARLY NOW THAN I EVER HAVE BEEN. So, God? Thanks for kicking my ass long enough and hard enough for me to learn how grateful I should be everyday to be here. To be alive and to be living my life. All the rest of it is part of the journey. SOMETIMES THE JOURNEY SUCKS ASS. What can you do but just wirk through it and keep it moving’! — michaelaUNCENSORED